Unbelievable Depravity

Right now there is a truly horrible, f–ked up deep itch being forced on and under my breasts.  I don’t understand why I keep being surprised by the level of hate and ugliness in this.  Part of the point in doing this is the humiliation I feel if I did succumb and scratch my breasts [...]

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Torture is murder

Torturing a person by causing them endless pain, especially while they beg for their life, until that person feels forced to take their own life to end their suffering, is murder.
What I’m experiencing as of today:
Voices in my head, subvocal and once in a while stereo
Forced Visual effects when I try to sleep and close [...]

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Kurt Vonnegut on Leaders and Sociopaths

…The Mask of Sanity, first published in 1941 and written by the late Dr. Hervey Cleckley, a clinical professor of psychiatry at the Medical College of Georgia.
Some people are born deaf, some are born blind or whatever, and this book is about congenitally defective human beings of a sort who are making this whole country [...]

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Suicide Talk

All this talk about suicide sounds pretty morbid and some people would feel like something like contempt for it. They dismissed it and belittled it in my head this morning. “My life is a pain” in a preteen boppy voice. Like I want my life to end because I’m just a melodramatic [...]

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Am trying to go on

but right now I feel like I just don’t care. This is so heartless and brutal. I can’t understand the kind of people who would do this. Brainwashing.
My last post beating myself up as if there was anything I’ve ever done, ever THOUGHT, that could possibly excuse this.
I think what they are [...]

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Irritable

Well not a great day so far. I feel this sort of hopeless depressed restless and irritable feeling. I feel some anger today at what’s being done to me and my family and how people can be this clueless and this ugly. You don’t need to know it all to know what [...]

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