It doesn’t matter what I do

Since I’ve been officially targeted about 2 and a half years ago, I have been tortured for reasons of supposedly needing to be punished. The first major punishment happened in April 2006. I was on my computer and became agitated and angry and began typing angry statements about how the perps were sick, [...]

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Trying to find a reason

Trying to find a reason
to think life is worthwhile
when dreams have become etched
copies of dried out scrolls,
no squeeze is left in these languidly
rolling daydreams.
so what is there now?
Day to day survival, for some
higher purpose above pain?
But listen, pain is pain and
I don’t care. I
don’t care about staying standing
even though I’ll lose, no Rocky
heroics for me.
What [...]

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Jerking e-harassment video

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It doesn’t matter

It doesn’t matter
anymore
the cold bent looks,
the soft hissing I hear
behind me.
You don’t count anymore;
not your sorry excuses to
discount me, a member
of this place called earth.
The glaring sunshine and flat plain
of this town are just as much mine
as are to any of you
and I’ll treat it so.
From now on with my every breath
I won’t hang down
in [...]

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Original plans back on , suicide triggers warning

I’m not even going to go into this too much, but, they are winning, and that’s it. I can’t do this for the rest of my life. I really don’t see any reason to continue doing this. I can’t even do anything about it for at least a few more months due [...]

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Perps masquerading as Targets

This is a topic I don’t see discussed much at all, but since I’ve discovered I was a targeted individual, almost every supposed target I have contacted has been a perp, or probably a perp. I feel embarrassed at saying this because I feel it sounds paranoid, but I’m certain by now that a [...]

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Whining, Brainwashing and Knee-Slapping Weirdo Pod People

This is really hurting.
I’m wondering if I sound whiny on here. I’ve been treating this blog basically as an almost unfiltered diary, not caring how I sounded as I’d resolved not to change my behavior because of worry of what “they” will say, as that is one slippery slope. Everything you do or [...]

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Constant worsening and upkeep of electronic harassment

For the past two days a marked worsening of one certain effect, the pain jolts that last about 1 second but can be very painful and feel almost like needles. It might be worse the aftereffect which is your body goes info a fight-or-flight mode but of course, there’s no way to guard or [...]

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Recent mind abuse

I don’t have dates but recently:

had the word antediluvian, put into my head (means old, I’m 32 years old and this is one of their themes for me, that I’m ancient, just another negative theme that is accepted just because they put it out there, like the greed one)
another word, vituperation. basically bitter [...]

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Video of My Electronic Torture

Look up Marin75 at photobucket.com

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