Look, I just want to make it clear if there are any perps who read this aware of my situation, just because I make the decision to try my best to live my life and make it if I can, does not mean that I will not commit suicide within a year as I claimed if the situation hasn’t improved. I am giving a year because I’m hoping that’s enough time that first, their punishment time allows them to lessen the torture and second, that hopefully, they won’t decide to either a) induce another forced episode, usually called by them a “scold”, where I am back at where it started me or b) it decides on some crazy-ass reason to make my torture worse, like the most recent ones of , I think I’m pretty (punishing me for a thought I can’t do anything about), I decide to go ahead and leave the house and not live my life in my room (“you’re not afraid anymore”) , or another one I can do nothing about, “you’re having fun”, which God forbid, I am not allowed apparently in this lifetime. Mind you, to the perps, fun for me equals reading a book. Looking at those possibilities, it does seem my chances are small. But since I still have a whole year to live, I’m going to at least make an attempt.
So just so you know, this is not crying wolf, it never, NEVER was. I have been and am completely serious. If there’s any respect on the value of my life or concern for the future pain of my family, please consider this and remember that I wrote this if I do end up being forced to this terrible decision.
Hi, I am a fellow TI, and I just read your blog here.
I am curious as to what do you think they mean by a “scold,” and who the heck do these maggots think they are that they have a right to do something like this any way?
I have been targeted for 4 years now, and it has been light for the most part for the last several weeks. Then again, however, that is how the pattern can go, sometimes hot and heavy and sometimes not much at all to nonexistent.
Do your perps communicate with you? The only communication I get is the occasional directed comment, but I never knowingly engage with the perps, as I do not wish to be stained by their presence anymore than I have to.
Lastly, do not kill yourself. I believe you. This is the kind of thing that is designed to make us look insane and delusional. The best time to collect evidence on this is when they first sensitize a given individual to the fact that they are being watched. At this point, their behaviors are exaggerated, and they use this to anchor us to various stimuli. Once the sensitization is complete, then they don’t have to be nearly as obvious, and they can let us know their presence through much more subtle means. The problem with this is that not many people are going to be savvy enough to attempt to record these things at first, as most will dismiss it as coincidence, rude people who should just be ignored, or simply denial, not wanting to believe the insanity that they are witnessing.
I hope I have helped.
Take care.
Dave
Don’t give up, they will fall someday
A scold is their term for me becoming angry and addressing them negatively; for example, saying that what they are doing is evil, or saying something (to myself) that they are creeps or bastards and that sort of thing. So basically having the audacity to think they are bad for attacking me.
I’ve also noticed the exaggerated sensitization behavior in the beginning. It was so exaggerated I thought it was almost funny at the time. That is good advice about recording in the beginning but it’s too late for me, the only thing I’ve recorded is the jerking video.
Hi eabuse, no they don’t like being told what cretins they are, their egos can’t take it. And as for going out, or even thinking we have the right to dress up etc, who do we think we are? May they rot in hell where they belong.
Dear. I read all blogs and it’s the same cheap retarded rotten juvenile nobrain that is in use. PLS keep posting instead of removing yourself or something. I’d like to see some TI statistics. How many females? How many who had been exposed to abuse or worse before? How many with bipolar parents, how many with more or less drug experiences, how many with diverse and maybe controverse also political ideas.
yes, please don’t kill yourself. there are many of us fighting the good fight against this for one and all. if you need to contact someone, please join us at mcvictims(dot)ning(dot)com. there are people all around the world and we need as many people as possible.