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Video of My Electronic Torture

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , , on April 26, 2008 | 1 Comment »

Look up Marin75 at photobucket.com

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Struggling

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , on April 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

I am struggling hard against this, I can’t seem to accept it. I really don’t want to, but this is unliveable. I feel very sorry for people with chronic pain or painful disease. If I at least had my mind I could maybe live with this. I already ordered Final Exit [...]

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Electronic violence and reality

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , , on April 25, 2008 | 7 Comments »

I don’t have much to write, they are heavily blanking out my brain today. They usually do that to some degree, although I’ve gotten partly used to it. It’s the front part of my brain. It’s pretty terrible.
So they’re murderers. Yeah.
There’s a book called Final Exit which I plan to buy [...]

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We Are Waiting poem

Posted in Poems, tagged on April 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

We Are Waiting
There are days that haven’t arrived yet,
that are being made
like bread or chairs or a product
from the pharmacies or the woodshops:
there are factories of days to come:
they exist, craftsmen of the soul
who raise and weigh and prepare
certain bitter or beautiful days
that arrive suddenly at the door
to reward us with an orange
or to instantly [...]

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Feeling somewhat better

Posted in gangstalking, tagged on April 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

Not feeling so urgent, or that my life as it is now is hopeless. My plan is just to go on as normally as possible, and ignore it as much as possible. That left me wondering whether it was good or bad to write here, but considering the recent worsening of effects, I’m [...]

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Suicide Talk

Posted in gangstalking, tagged , , , on April 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

All this talk about suicide sounds pretty morbid and some people would feel like something like contempt for it. They dismissed it and belittled it in my head this morning. “My life is a pain” in a preteen boppy voice. Like I want my life to end because I’m just a melodramatic [...]

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Am trying to go on

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , , on April 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

but right now I feel like I just don’t care. This is so heartless and brutal. I can’t understand the kind of people who would do this. Brainwashing.
My last post beating myself up as if there was anything I’ve ever done, ever THOUGHT, that could possibly excuse this.
I think what they are [...]

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April 14 Monday 2008

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , , on April 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

I felt today like I should just be honest and make my plans for a year from now. I really don’t want to live like this and I realize how incredibly unlikely this is going to stop. I mean if they are actually targeting my parents who are basically harmless people who when [...]

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Severe worsening

Posted in Electronic harassment, tagged , on April 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »

About two weeks or so ago, we went to Costco. It’s funny because the last, or first time, that the effects became extreme was in April after going to Costco. And is when this whole thing technically started five years ago after leaving the hospital for pneumonia, kickstarted the whole no sleep [...]

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